Manifesto to life

Strive to be an extension of what's around you

Whenever possible, leave things in a better condition than when you found them

Listen to the world, assent your desires & respect your kindred

Reap and sow, love is bountiful

Embrace you, you are holistic only in accepting your light & dark

Learn constructively from change & challenge, succsessful or not

When you burn with any emotion or thought, allow yourself time and commit to 

fully burn

Our expression is unique together

Aspire for a balance of strong goals and being open for the unplanned adventure

Breathing in the presence of sorrow

Sometimes you just got to allow a moments weakness, a moment of doubt to enter you. Otherwise we are pretty much like a corsette tied to tight to breathe proper.

And to breathe proper is to feel proper.

And like breathing we need to inhale all of it. Take a deep breath and let all emotions gather together. Only then will a fuller picture reveal itself.

Thoughts and feelings are often seen as singular entities but in fact, they are very much codependant on each other.

So when you take this moment to let go of your mental prison. And by allowing yourself this one deep breath full with meaning and emotion you can find beauty and strength in the experience and memories therein.

Ready for a deep breath? Here's how:

Inhale and as you do so let the first deepest emotions consume you, sorrow and pain. As your lungs expand you start to allow more profound thoughts binding them together. At the apex of the breathe you embrace the memories, close your eyes and see all the beutiful things about them. As you start to exhale it's almost as if the memory itself fades. But it doesn't. Open your eyes, and as you do so allow yourself to breathe out the negative and feel it leave your body. When the last air leaves your lungs, throw away your fears.

But don't linger.

One breath is enough. When you come down from it fully you'll know what you have to do.

Reherse this technique. Use the mental imagery provided. Feel free to modify it to suit your needs. The structure is inspired from mentalism. It might not be the optimal way but I believe it can be really helpful when you have thoughts that must be put to rest to avoid feeling the need to crawl up a wall or under a rock. At least that is why I designed it.

Signed, Mireneye

Transcend through co-existence

When I had nothing to give but myself only then did I find an incredible force to evolve, to repurpose who I am.

By deepening the understanding of my drives and the drives of those close to me, I've grown closer to everything. 

To say that friends and love and intimacy changes me is to undervalue what is actually going on. What is going on is not about change or the will to change. But an interaction of co-existance. It's like I'm shaping myself by allowing myself to be fully integrated with the people around me.

It's about rediscovering memories I never had. 

See every time we look back at ourselves and our adventure we can choose in what light we percieve. And through our minds eye we reshape the past.

The past is like a reflection of our now. It's affecting our core values and beliefs at every step we take. Because every step we leave behind is just that.

A memory.

A memory left in the earth where we walk. A memory left in the wind which graced our skin. A memory that will never be the same again.

That's how frail things are. But that is also the beauty of it. That is a maelstrom from which we derive conclusive evidence of who we are and what we are here to do.

Recently I've been in the company of people who make me truly transcend. People who have shared with me so many memories that otherwise would never have been mine.

This is me leaving a memory for them to say that I love you. 

Being homeless is the best thing in the world, & here is why!

For someone like me, it's been quite a journey going from somebody with a lot of security to somebody with bar none. But it's the best thing in the world and I'll tell you why.

One reason is my newfound appreciation of life.

From appreciating the helping hands of family and friends to something as simple as appreciating the smile of a stranger. Or wind rustling leaves, leaving me smiling in a storm of dust.

I learnt to fully appreciate that a good life doesn't need a lot of things. As long as you have good friends and family.

Allow me to clarify. I mean no disrespect to people who are genuinely homeless. Those I have the greatest respect for, especially now that I've gone through an episode in life of loosing track of everything, money, home & job. I can only hope these people have their own ways to find solace.

The second reason is humbling.

When I fell from my peak in life, only then did I realize how hard it can be to ask for help. I didn't find help in abundance, but somehow I made it out. I've come out humble and thankful. This is truly a testament to the quote form the japanese movie Casshern that "Existence is to be shared" and that "We are not here to simply exist, but to find the strength to co-exist". I just happen to be on the other end of the spectrum. I'm the recieving end. A very unusual place having basically grown up living on the giving end.

Which brings me to my next reason.

Realizing that giving never stops. If you have nothing you can simply give of yourself. And that my friends is perhaps the most profound and pure way to give. Offering to help with services, offering your piece of mind. Sharing emotive experiences with people.

I grew closer to A LOT of people, in part because suddenly all I had to give... was myself.

And I have rarely if ever been so happy, never before has the common quote "Less is more" rung more true.

Last but all important.

Starting out at zero with my own life has given me a lot of time to reinvent myself. Who do I want to be within a year or two? which people do I want in my life and so on and so fourth.

The amount of freedom I have at the moment is insane. I can practically wake up to a situation in such utter chaos that anything I want to become is at my doorstep. I just need to reach into the furthest crevice baring the manifestation I crave and take a hold of it and nurture it with holistic intent.

I am.

And I aim to become so much more.

Join me on the next journey. I'm sure it will be marvelous!

Signed, Mireneye

Reap and sow, love is bountiful

How silly are we to use all resources but the ones of which there are infinite? How silly are we to confine ourselves to only one person? How is it that in our society today we have made ourselves ridden with guilt for trying and failing to conform. As if being on a tight leash with society at the reins.

It's time we changed our reasoning to adapt a more dynamic view on life. The old model is built on prehistoric survival. Today society plays a large role in perpetuating monogamous relationships through all of our ingrown habits, rituals and media influence.

So I ask why not treat every new encounter equally, meet and build unique connections. Sexual or not.

It doesn't matter how it ends up.

Just listen to the world, agree with your desires and respect your kindred.

Reap and sow, love is bountiful.

-Mireneye on Relationship Anarchism

All of me

Allow me the pleasure to get a bit visceral.

Sometimes life decides to fuck you up the anal tract with a rusty old chipped steel pipe. And what do we do?

We show life that this ain't no prison, there's rules, etiquette, morals and a little something called humanity.

Now let me tell you about the latter.

Humanity is the smile you give a stranger. It's the pop of an all to apparent social bubble when approaching people. It is the feeling of belonging somewhere. It's saving worms from drowning in the rain. It's you and me, respecting each other fully.

No matter who you are. As long as you accept others.

Today I was rejected from life. Uprooted from my safe haven. Torn from a world relatively safe. Like a damaged cell, I'm trying to heal by going back to a safe state.

Knowing my past will bare one more scar.

I moved to the south in part because I met some of the most inspirational people I've ever met. Brave to live for what they believed in, beautiful in the way they create and excite.

I also moved because I have a desire to adventure and to at times throw myself into the unknown and let the world open up before me.

The issue at hand is a clash of two worlds. Even when I try my best, some people just have standards that just won't work with me. And I'm sorry I don't fit in their snug perfect box, no, wait; actually fuck their box with a cheese grater! I thought I could trust these super people. But it turns out once they break, they l loose part of their humanity. And the only thing they see is a mirror image of me, me, me. Unable to respect others efforts and good will.

I learned many lessons these six months. How to build walls, handle cement, how society treats people who strife to live of their arts, both on streets and from government branches.I also picked up a bunch of baby sitting skills, many clever everyday sentiments and I even picked up some cooking knowledge. I learned how there is a whole other world of people I think I do best to avoid living with.

Sometimes I feel like the only sane person. Yet I guess you'd think me insane for throwing away work, apartment and leaving friends behind to try live in this box. You have to understand, I was dead on the inside. Work was so close to breaking me. As my family was being torn apart (work related) and I had all but lost my muse. So I did what I always do, I try to find a way. And until a few days ago I believed I was slowly getting there. That I had hit rock bottom. A new slate. But life surprised me by kicking me further down. I really didn't think I'd be homeless, jobless and money less all at the same time. At least I'm not witless.

And I have beautiful friends and family with no real obligation who's ready to help out just because that is the way they are.

But allow me a moments fairness. I've had food on the table and roof above my head. I've tried to do what's in my power to help out. I'm sad that it wasn't enough because deep down I believed in this and wanted to help and be a part of it. Apparently I was not good enough to them even if I tried my best trying to hold onto all of the things I had in my head. Looking up how to start my own company, failed because it really bites you in the ass if you want to get a base income from Alfakassan. Looking for work was problematic and there was paperwork in abundance. I even started to brave the streets to try to earn back some money so I could more easily sustain my own living, that also proved a huge learning experience, and during my recent trip north, I even started to write a manuscript and plan for my stage show. In between I've kept up with work on my game, my writing. Tried to make Playjoy work but really couldn't. This may seem a story of many failed things and it is, but some of them were slowly falling into place. They.. I needed time. Time I would have had, had I listened to my own reasoning. But remember I was craving change in life.

That's maybe half that was going on. The other half was winter and trying to get on track with renovations on the house. Or taking care of it in the absence of its owners. But eeh, I don't really like to count favors but I feel I have to set an example.

I don't want to antagonize these people, I just want them to know I feel they don't understand me at all. And I guess at the end of the day I don't understand them.

I don't know how lowly I'd have felt If I ever had to tell someone without social and economical security to just vanish in a day. I'm not just a ragdoll to be kicked around.

They have said to care for me and their family.

Yet all this talk about caring for family is now but a cold, calculated shield to hide behind. It's comfortable to have someone to blame, isn't it?

Either way...

It's ungrateful to not at least help a visitor on his way out. But I'm not getting that either it seems.

And so I'm burdened to ask monumental favors from other family and friends.. And for what exactly?

But from this grave I'll forge a life to outshine the northern star.

Watch me shine.

And let my stars shine with me. You know who you are.

Signed, Mireneye

Phone blogging test

Trying out different apps to blog with. This one seems neat! Simple, effective. And works well with Swype. Look forward to more posts now that I can write easy on the go =)

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