The evening muse

I wish I had someone to hold at night
To wake up besides in the morning

To catch the scent of their newly showered hair
To play with

Someone to love and be loved by

Choices

What do what to do? panic.

MMA/Muai Thai?
Party?
Star wars marathon?
other movie marathon?

What will you do today? Inspire me.

Rain

It's raining outside.

Sometimes I wish the rain could wash away my feelings

like it washes the earth.

Growing wings

You are all so beautiful, so talented
To live by your side, to be your friend
Is like a dream in itself


And I can only hope I can shine
Shine as brightly on your skies
As thy have lit mine


Thank you all for years of inspiration
For housing my broken self


And for accepting me


I've tried so hard to be accepted
Yet with you it becomes so simple


You are the wind under my wings
And when you can't carry me any more


It's because of you
I learn how to fly

Uuugh

Feeling a bit sick. No energy. Have things I have to do yet I would prefer lying in the sofa, sleeping all day.

Life

There is a clear differance between acting alive and being alive.
I tried acting alive for a month or two. I even lived from time to time.

Sometimes I was a wreak of self-pity. At other times thankful that everything panned out the way it has and finally I had the times where anger was my only real friend and a fist to the wall was everything that could dull what lingered inside.

But that is about as dark as this story gets.

By myself but not alone I have grown stronger, somewhat wiser.

But it was not until two or three weeks ago that this knowledge and strength actually started to show itself.

There are a lot of small events that kicked me into this gear and I attribute every one of them to friends of mine. Even if you did not know exactly what you did it might have been as simple as sitting outside chilling and chatting about everyday topics. A simple example of one of the gears that turned me around.

I had a really nice day today. Taking care of my tattoo, hanging out with a friend at her apartment, watching the recording of "Haffus how to" commercial! and playing donkey kong for SNES and topping off the evening with going to another friends level-up (birthday for the non-nerd among us).

All in all I could not ask for a much better day other then feeling a bit feverish and with a hint of soar throat.

Work tomorrow.

Wish me luck!

Todays lol:


Hugs

Signed, Mireneye

As promised ^^

I really have nothing more to say, other then:
Will you have a tattoo as well?
What will it be and why?
Or why are you not getting one?

Signed, Mireneye