I was going to go to bed. Like four hours ago. I was going but some odd feeling kept me awake. I think a mixture of not getting 100% correct sustenance for the body in combination with a lot of screentime at the computer working on my game is having some secondary effects on me.
I guess emotionally as well there's an immense pressure that I try to manage while just throwing myself out there. Life has always panned out in some way if I just trust myself and bide my time, there's a solution waiting to be found and I'll keep looking around.
But yeah, eight or nine months back I thought I'd never say this but I kind of miss having a job. I don't miss any job per se. And I don't miss the long hours. I just long for a creative job where I can put in about three to four days a week. This longing might be a secondary effect of having no money.
I sire hope not. I don't like to think I'm motivated by money.
What motivates me then? Personal growth and gaining new abileties and experience of life. It's really that simple. Flashing money at my face doesn't work and I'm not going to sell my soul to get there.
I'll keep looking. It's out there somewhere, the greatest solution to my problems. Something that will satiate my desires.
Embrace me universe!
tisdag 21 juli 2015
måndag 29 juni 2015
Drawn towards the flame
I'm drawn towards a flame
And I would fear getting burned
And I would fear the light
If not for my mastery of fire
If not for my sense of self
Temptations tear at me, I wanna go wild
If not for my sense of self
Temptations tear at me, I wanna go wild
But I dance carefully
Until the time is right
I will unleash the beast inside
The adventure beckons
The light awaits
I will unleash the beast inside
The adventure beckons
The light awaits
The world is mine
Not mine to own
But mine to experience
Not mine to own
But mine to experience
-Mireneye
onsdag 27 maj 2015
In the light of fire!
Amazing photoghrapher Zion once again, this time capturing the moment with me after the years first outside bath, in light of fire:
http://zionfoto.blogspot.se/2015/05/i-eldens-sken_27.html
Signed, Mireneye
Signed, Mireneye
onsdag 20 maj 2015
I am the artist, I am the force. I'm the engineer building life outside the box!
I spit out a lot of fancy words. I try to sound educated hiding behind lingusitics and the ways different things can be interpreted. But why?
Why do I linger on finding and sharing meaning in what I write? Am I just flexing my artistic mucles? am I flexing my mind, showing off my verbal skills?
Am I in a hunt for appreciation?
Appreciation is a powerful drive. It can drive someone mad. It can lift you into a kind of higher gear. Sometimes breaking you apart, sometimes healing.
It's likely the majority of my insecureties all loop back upon the moment in life when I was about seven years old when a teacher told me "You will never become anything in life".
Today, I would spit on her grave & tell her that I have lived a life more fulfilling than she would ever know.
I've grown. I'm a force. I'm an artist. I'm the engineer building life outside the box.
The box was not big enough.
The world is my playground.
If I could give you one thing. A single hint at life. I would tell you now that The world doesn't wait for you. It will run away, it will hide. It will try to be outside your grasp. It will tear itself away from you.
It's like that friend of yours teasing you, poking you. Laughing kind of at you.
Know that you are powerful, you can laugh back. You can tease back, you can poke at life.
This life of yours so precious. It's yours to play with. So take it to the mountains, take it to the sea. Take it where it wants to be. Be it in the arms of a lover. Be it on the shores of philosophy and thought.
Life can be the best playmate you ever had. Make it so!
Why do I linger on finding and sharing meaning in what I write? Am I just flexing my artistic mucles? am I flexing my mind, showing off my verbal skills?
Am I in a hunt for appreciation?
Appreciation is a powerful drive. It can drive someone mad. It can lift you into a kind of higher gear. Sometimes breaking you apart, sometimes healing.
It's likely the majority of my insecureties all loop back upon the moment in life when I was about seven years old when a teacher told me "You will never become anything in life".
Today, I would spit on her grave & tell her that I have lived a life more fulfilling than she would ever know.
I've grown. I'm a force. I'm an artist. I'm the engineer building life outside the box.
The box was not big enough.
The world is my playground.
If I could give you one thing. A single hint at life. I would tell you now that The world doesn't wait for you. It will run away, it will hide. It will try to be outside your grasp. It will tear itself away from you.
It's like that friend of yours teasing you, poking you. Laughing kind of at you.
Know that you are powerful, you can laugh back. You can tease back, you can poke at life.
This life of yours so precious. It's yours to play with. So take it to the mountains, take it to the sea. Take it where it wants to be. Be it in the arms of a lover. Be it on the shores of philosophy and thought.
Life can be the best playmate you ever had. Make it so!
måndag 18 maj 2015
Check out these new amazing fire poi pictures!
As promised earlier this year, I had some things cooking. First up some pictures from a very talented photographer, go check her out and give us some feedback on these goodies. Much love.
http://zionfoto.blogspot.se/2015/05/eld-2.html
Signed, Mireneye
http://zionfoto.blogspot.se/2015/05/eld-2.html
Signed, Mireneye
söndag 3 maj 2015
Manifesto to life
Strive to be an extension of what's around you
Whenever possible, leave things in a better condition than when you found them
Whenever possible, leave things in a better condition than when you found them
Listen to the world, assent your desires & respect your kindred
Reap and sow, love is bountiful
Embrace you, you are holistic only in accepting your light & dark
Learn constructively from change & challenge, succsessful or not
When you burn with any emotion or thought, allow yourself time and commit to
fully burn
Our expression is unique together
Aspire for a balance of strong goals and being open for the unplanned adventure
Aspire for a balance of strong goals and being open for the unplanned adventure
tisdag 28 april 2015
Breathing in the presence of sorrow
Sometimes you just got to allow a moments weakness, a moment of doubt to enter you. Otherwise we are pretty much like a corsette tied to tight to breathe proper.
And to breathe proper is to feel proper.
And like breathing we need to inhale all of it. Take a deep breath and let all emotions gather together. Only then will a fuller picture reveal itself.
Thoughts and feelings are often seen as singular entities but in fact, they are very much codependant on each other.
So when you take this moment to let go of your mental prison. And by allowing yourself this one deep breath full with meaning and emotion you can find beauty and strength in the experience and memories therein.
Ready for a deep breath? Here's how:
Inhale and as you do so let the first deepest emotions consume you, sorrow and pain. As your lungs expand you start to allow more profound thoughts binding them together. At the apex of the breathe you embrace the memories, close your eyes and see all the beutiful things about them. As you start to exhale it's almost as if the memory itself fades. But it doesn't. Open your eyes, and as you do so allow yourself to breathe out the negative and feel it leave your body. When the last air leaves your lungs, throw away your fears.
But don't linger.
One breath is enough. When you come down from it fully you'll know what you have to do.
Reherse this technique. Use the mental imagery provided. Feel free to modify it to suit your needs. The structure is inspired from mentalism. It might not be the optimal way but I believe it can be really helpful when you have thoughts that must be put to rest to avoid feeling the need to crawl up a wall or under a rock. At least that is why I designed it.
Signed, Mireneye
And to breathe proper is to feel proper.
And like breathing we need to inhale all of it. Take a deep breath and let all emotions gather together. Only then will a fuller picture reveal itself.
Thoughts and feelings are often seen as singular entities but in fact, they are very much codependant on each other.
So when you take this moment to let go of your mental prison. And by allowing yourself this one deep breath full with meaning and emotion you can find beauty and strength in the experience and memories therein.
Ready for a deep breath? Here's how:
Inhale and as you do so let the first deepest emotions consume you, sorrow and pain. As your lungs expand you start to allow more profound thoughts binding them together. At the apex of the breathe you embrace the memories, close your eyes and see all the beutiful things about them. As you start to exhale it's almost as if the memory itself fades. But it doesn't. Open your eyes, and as you do so allow yourself to breathe out the negative and feel it leave your body. When the last air leaves your lungs, throw away your fears.
But don't linger.
One breath is enough. When you come down from it fully you'll know what you have to do.
Reherse this technique. Use the mental imagery provided. Feel free to modify it to suit your needs. The structure is inspired from mentalism. It might not be the optimal way but I believe it can be really helpful when you have thoughts that must be put to rest to avoid feeling the need to crawl up a wall or under a rock. At least that is why I designed it.
Signed, Mireneye
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