Woke up at around ten something from my phone ringing with my lovely tune ^^ It was my old flame, like a ray of sunlight she woke me up and damned if she didn't give me half of her energy over the phone. I made haste to wash up and get dressed and then I hitched a ride down town to meet up with her.
We went to the store and bought some stuff. Reminding myself here and now that I have chocolate cream at her place. And then we proceeded to get to her place by buss.
Started a movie, she was too tired so she took off into her room to catch some shut-eye. I finished watching the movie and proceeded as instructed to wake her up. At her short waking she gave a new order, for the next fourty minutes she wanted more sleep. I recall just laying next to her listening to her breath, getting reminded of how much it soothes my mind. Such a small thing.
I also had time to think. I understand her much better now. I accept that she does not feel the same way any more. Something I coudn't bring myself to accept earlier. Stupid perhaps but I'm not particularily smart when it comes to these things. I also pondered the idea of relationships and I'm not sure It's what I want right now.
I wondered for a while if I could ask her the question of "why we couldn't fix things?" or "don't you think you could love me again". I did not however. silly questions. But I type them down here as I need to vent.
After a few, maybe twenty minutes of trying I was able to jolt some life into her.
Then she got dressed, a common friend of ours came by and they got ready for the gym. In short we split up. It all ended on a quite bad note. My curiosity and drive are sometimes a bit too strong for my own good. I poked around a bit to much asking this common friend what was wrong, he seemed down and I don't want him to be down and I have a tendancy to think that sharing helps. And that I can help.
Needless to say I poked to hard and in retrospect now owe him an apology. My old flame reminded me later that I should be more careful when people are down.
I met up with another friend waiting at the door, she was texting me earlier asking if she could borrow my microwave and cutlery and being the time optimist I'am I said "yes, of course you can". We got inside and she heated her food and I started the arcade dance machine I have standing next to the sofa, planning to play 'til my legs would give in. A very difficult task, concidering my recovery rate and stamina and willpower.
She accidenitally spilled her food on the floor, so I got the oven going and started making garlic bread for her whilist playing. She took good care of cleaning her mess ^^
After nearly two hours and an ending push of epic proportions I finally fell to the ground. Only to get up and play a final song and then I could finally get my well earned shower. And by that time she had left and two other friends had dropped by.
And here I sit now, clean, typing this very text. Thinking and philosophing about life. Talking to people on facebook.
Time to play some real games, not the geeky dance thingawamojang.
Signed, Mireneye
